MY SON GAGE – by GAGE39 (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Based on "A FATHER'S PLEA" on fan fiction.
I never gave birth to a kid of my own.
Never regretted it.
Always wondered though what it would
Be like to hold a newborn baby in my arms
And know it was mine.
Until I met you.
You are my second and youngest child.
May sound confusing to one who doesn't
Understand that blood doesn't make you
The love I have in my heart for you makes
Up for that.
When I first knew you, you were defiant:
Trying to prove you weren't scared.
Others admired your bravado.
I recognized it for what it was, a shield
For your fear.
I've heard you cry yourself to sleep and
Wake yourself up screaming when you
Thought I wasn't listening.
I've listened to you rant and rave and my
Heart's bled for you when life dealt you
One devastating blow after another.
Sometimes you asked me what the purpose
Of living was and I never could give you a
Other times you seemed as happy as could be,
Crackin' jokes but I saw through the facade.
I saw the hurt and pain in your yes even as
You tried to cover it up with another laugh
One of these days I'm gonna leave and you'll
Explode but I won't be there to pick up the
You'll decide not to love again and cut yourself
Off from those who care about you and who can
Don't do this to me, Gage.
Don't hurt me like this.
It hurts worse than you can ever know watching
You struggle to stay alive, to find a reason to live.
A good reason is sittin' in front of your nose but
You're too afraid to grasp it.
I wish I could undo the past, make the pain go
But I can't.
For my sake, Gage, for my sake, my son, live.